My Fifth Grade

T, Beth and Sierra moved to my town during my fifth grade year. They were from Chicago, and I adored them. Something about the crass attitude and big city style made me instantly love them. They were disruptive and loud. They had fooled around with, Lord knows, how many guys. Did I say that I loved them? I worshiped their ferocity.

Beth's idol was Lorena Bobbit, T's dad was in the mob and there wasn't an adult in school that hadn't received a verbal lashing from Sierra. They ruled the school. Pure evil, to be sure.

Crimson and Gold

Bring it. I'm in a ruling mood today. I'm on fire. I will set you ablaze if you aren't careful. Be drawn to my light like a moth to its inevitable demise... I AM RISING!

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzip...

I wish I was a quiet, unassuming, non-opinionated person. I want to just keep my mouth shut and let everyone else make bad decisions and say the wrong thing.

I'm going to try it on and see how I like it today. No talking unless first addressed. Not a word.

It ends and leaves you immobile...

That is the problem with too much of a good thing...

I woke-up this morning hating life. I've had to say goodbye to too many people.

I graduated from college last May, and have spent the past year pretending that I was an adult. I had a new job and a new place to live, but I still had friends around that I cared for very much that were still connect to school. As of two days ago, all of those connections have severed. I have a different connection to my alma mater. Hopefully, a healthy one, but I can't help but feel as though a period in my life has truly ended. Saying goodbye before wasn't quite so hard, but I'm static while everyone else is moving.

I'm not disappointed, honestly. It has nothing to do with what my life is, but I have no clue what my life will become. No goals beyond the short term. I suppose it's emotions that keep us going, good or bad. Emotions...emotions.

My 55....

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people:

1. I spent a week playing nothing but Snaps and War with you, and I miss you in my life.
2. Sometimes you piss me off til I lose my temper, but we always seem to make it through our little tiffs.
3. You took my heart and broke it. I'm not sure I will ever fully get over that, but I try everyday.
4. I forget how wonderful you are, and then you do something that's like a smack in the face, and I remember.
5. Knowing you always feels like a dream. You are wonderful and vibrant, and I miss seeing you everyday.
6. You are the most stubborn person I have ever met.
7. You are one of the most beautiful people I know.
8. I wish you would wake up and realize that everyone loves you the way you are. Even God.
9. You will succeed, and overcome. I have faith in you.
10. We do rule.

Nine things about myself:

1. I'm secretly a tree-hugging hippy.
2. I sometimes seem very judgmental, but I usually let the actions speak for themselves.
3. I have trust issues

4. Give me liberty or give me death.
5. Don't tell me I can't. It just pisses me off.
6. My faith is ever changing and evolving.
7. Sometimes I fear I will never find real love.
8. I fall in love WAY too easily.
9. As a result, I get burned. A lot.


Eight ways to win my heart:

1. Have passion in everything you choose to do.
2. Have some creative ability.
3. Eat with me. :)
4. Have faith, and believe in hope.
5. Only let me have my way, when I really need it. Otherwise, don't.
6. Do what you think is honest and good.
7. Continuously push yourself, and in response me, to be better than you are.
8. Hug me, and hold me a little longer each time. (I loved this too much not to use it.)


Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1. Really?....Really?
2. Huh...
3. Ya know....
4. Oh MY GOSH!!!
5. I know, right?
6. Oh, shut up...
7. I'm gonna kill him...


Six things I do before I go sleep:

1. Wash my face.
2. Brush my teeth.
3. Moisturize everything.
4. Talk to myself.
5. Read.
6. Make sure the doors are locked.


Five people who mean a lot to me:

1. Mom/Gram
2. Larry
3. Dione
4. Rick
5. Barbra Streisand

Four things I'm wearing right now:

1. Black dress slacks
2. Givenchy tie
3. H&M Undies
4. Eyeglasses


Three songs that I listen to often:

1. Side Show - I Will Never Leave You
2. Lady GaGa - Alejandro
3. Idina Menzel - Heaven Help My Heart

Two things I want to do before I die:

1. Create something truly meaningful and memorable.
2. Fully love God and myself.

One Confession:

1. I seem to be the most confident person to the world, but I'm the most worrisome, scared, self-conscious person that needs validation from others.

Purged...

Abolition, abstersion, catharsis, clarification,cleaning, cleanup, coup, crushing, disposal,disposition, ejection, eradication, evacuation, excretion, expulsion, expurgation, extermination, extirpation, liquidation, murder, purification, reign of terror, suppression, witch hunt